Ok, so i may have stolen this idea from someone elses blog. But since this is my only sad excuse for a journal, i think ill share for my future posterity the things i want my children to know. I was trying to fall asleep last night and part of my mother kicked in and my brain wouldnt shut off. i dont remember what mental track brought me to this memory, but i decided i wanted to share it with my children some day, so that they can learn from my mistakes. I had a friend one time who told me all of these things she'd done that she and I both knew were wrong. I remember that i was too worried about keeping our friendship that instead of telling her taht what she was doing was wrong, i just ignored it. What kept me tossing and turning all night was that she knew what she was doing was wrong and she knew i wouldnt approve of it, but i didnt do anything about it. and i feel like now that she needed me to tell her to straighten up. she needed me to address it with a matter of importance in order for her to know that i cared about what she did. and she needed someone to stand up for what was right when she hadnt done so herself. So future children of mine, dont ever hesitate to stand up for what you know is right. I wasnt by any means encouraging her to continue what she was doing, but by not speaking up about it, i was doing nothing to help her and nothing to stand up for what i knew was right. I want my future children to know who they are and what they believe in, but more importantly i want them to have the confidence to share that with others so that they can stand up for what is right when noone else is. got that kids?!
I think ill just put in my request for perfect children.
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